July 4, 2008

i used to run another blog a few years back, something that I've never really shared with any of my friends. Link will never be disclosed.. hehe I was skimming through it a while ago and look what i found.

Daw ka insignificant gid ni nga event nga wala ko man sya nadumduman kung wala ko ni nabasa. Palataw-an gid ko gali sa mga school girl crush ko sang una.. And my gahd, nacrushan ko xa gali! hahaha talaw-an.. =P (wala gid ni na edit so kung buki ang words pasenxa.. hahaha!)

iam weak, you see?

For more than three years, i've been fighting the urge to recognize that this groupmate of mine is cute. haha!! but today i failed.. tsk3..
yes.. a disappointing day for my neurons. the same day when i felt like stricken with pneumonia for some reason. indeed, the pouring skies couldn't have warned me better. there i was sitting behind him, noticing his beautifully carved nose, chinky eyes, lean yet slightly muscular physique and candle fingers. before it got out of hand, i stopped myself by diverting my attention into asking a friend something about our project. wrong move, for my question led me into being refered to him. and before i knew it, there i was again, foolishly smiling at him fighting every creeping awkwardness i knew would strangle me if i gave in to even just a single second of enjoying the short exchange of what and who nonsense with him. it was brief yet it left a lingering consciousness. it smelled it in him too. is this victory? (sssshhh!!! kahuluya! kung may kakilala sa iya hipos! haha) did he somehow react to what i was trying not to send? and then he did the unexpected. he asked for my number. my heart leaped and stumbled for right away he clarified that he only wanted to text me about my query. an information he left at home. i gave my number.
it was getting out of hand and so i left and senselessly wandered around the 4metersquared lobby until i reached the awful smelling CR where i intoxicated myself away from getting swayed by him, with the smell of ammonia.
it all happened in less than 10 minutes.