quicksand

i wanna cry so hard it will just stop hurting.

i wanna cry so hard my memory will just become a blank slate.

i wanna cry so hard the world will begin to understand my pain.

i wanna cry so hard the night will cease to exist.

i wanna cry so hard nobody will ever leave me.

i wanna cry so hard this skin will peel itself off that it'll offset everything else i'm feeling.

i wanna cry so hard it shall undo the past.

i wanna cry so hard the clouds wouldn't dare cross my path again.

i wanna cry so hard it'll make me and force me to understand.

i wanna cry so hard i'll forever be numb.

i wanna cry so hard i'll never be dumb.

i wanna cry so hard i'll function again.

i wanna cry so hard i'll be setting off to a new dimension where you are but a speck of dust.

i wanna cry so hard i wouldn't know how to cry anymore.

i wanna cry so hard i'd forget why i'm crying.

i wanna cry so hard i would stop breathing,

my heart would stop beating,

brain activity ceasing.

i give up.